“the best proof of love is trust”

what is it called when you are doubted over and over by your relationship partner, the one person who is supposed to have your back above everyone else? 

what is it called when they punish you over and over for something you have never done? and call you a liar when you stand up for yourself…

for weeks, months, years they doubt you, accuse you, blame you, and disrespect you, until you realize you have no more emotional strength to fight back, you are getting accustomed to being disrespected, you start doubting yourself and have to check yourself throughout the day to make sure you aren’t losing a grip on reality, you isolate yourself as you are so ashamed you let this happen, so you feel alone and are losing hope. and when the relationship fails they blame you for making them treat you that way 

i hope to bring awareness of these situations, how it affects you so gradually and how each incident seems so trivial on its own that you aren’t even sure if you are being treated unfairly after all, maybe you are just overreacting. the purpose of this blog is to reach out and ultimately gain some understanding why this happened to me and how to cope

at the moment i really don’t know why this relationship turned on me, all i know is that the long term effects of being unfairly blamed and wrongly accused, over and over for months into years, while holding onto the hope that things would somehow go back to how amazing they were in the beginning, has left me in a bad place… i am a mess, exasperated, and helpless, i feel like i’ve tried everything but nothing i do will make him admit the truth… but then again i did nothing to make him doubt me either…